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Kung ayaw, may dahilan
Kung gusto, palaging merong paraan. - Rico Blanco


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 Hi.

Moment: January is ending.

And oh my, that was one hell of a month to start the year. I'm not even overreacting. It's been an emotional roller coaster. Stress confetti everywhere and almost everyone, including myself, contributed to the excruciating misery. 

But to tell you the truth, honey-- I wouldn't want it any other way. 

1) I have a new supervisor at work and he's just too kind. Despite of the fact that I'm a pain in the butt because I can be late and absent for a lot of factors, he still find ways to keep me in the company-- not that I want to stay there but I have no choice. (Oops, spoiler.) To my supervisor who's reading this right now--- thank you. You have no idea how much this means to me. I might act like I'm cool but really, I'm not. I'm really weak and even if you don't know why I'm depressed, I'm thankful people like you still exists.

P.S You still owe me money.

2) I'm trying to rap some of Twenty One Pilot's songs and dear God-- I'm sorry. One time, my rapping was probably audible inside the jeepney that I caught some dude smile. 

I can't see past my own nose, I'm seeing everything in slo-mo
Look out below crashing down to the ground just like a vertical locomotive
That's a train, am I painting the picture that's in my brain?
A train from the sky, locomotive, my motives are insane
My flow's not great, okay, I conversate with people
Who know if I-

I get lost there. I pretty much am a loser.


3) Over The Garden Wall. I discovered this miniseries by accident with my boyfriend and at first I thought-- 'Hey, its just another random show.' But no. It's not. I was wrong. It's not random at all and I'll have you know that I cried so hard during the last three episodes.

 

4) More people are calling me Batgirl. And speaking of that-- Batman: Bad Blood was great. Especially the ending where they revealed Barbara Gordon. Gosh, I'm fangirling again. Sorry. But really, the Bat Family is just so full of awesomeness. I can't wait for The Killing Joke.

5) I miss Chrisaline and Faith. And Edna and Lyra. I miss my high school friends. I hope they're okay. I feel bad for not replying and not catching up with them. I wish I could go back to that time. And hey- my mom was still alive that time, too..

6) I get tired easily. Maybe because I lack aspiration to work. Dad doesn't have a job anymore so I have to actually carry the weight on my shoulders. I'm not complaining, I'm more worried because I lose energy so fast. And now that I think about it, I take my body for granted.


I'm sleepy.
See?

Probably won't show up for my date later. But that's just mean.


LOVE,

 

Bitch by Meredith Brooks
Sorry by Justin Bieber
Semi Automatic by Twenty One Pilots
Amazing Day by Coldplay
Fireside by Arctic Monkeys