Mother(less) Day

"All your faults can't make me love you less. Please be strong for me. Don't be sad because I'll start crying again."

Mom said that days before she died. I was a weakling and I told her I feel like I'm a worthless daughter to her. She cried so hard that day. I could have swore she felt like she blamed herself for what I was feeling. 

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I've always celebrated Mother's Day preparing breakfast for my mom or making this really corny card  or giving her flowers. This year, I celebrated Mother's Day eating breakfast alone. No more cards. No more cake. No more laughs. Only flowers. Flowers to remind me that that I don't  have a mom. The though always brings me down and I start to tear apart and cry. People try to tell me that she's in a better place and I should be happy. But I don't buy it. They don't have the slightest clue how excruciating the pain is every time I wake up every morning thinking mom's dead. She's dead and I need to accept that and it's hard. 

Mother's Day was a day where I could honor all the mothers all over the world. And now it just became a day to remind me that I'm going to spend the rest of my life without a mom.

*cries*

*ten minutes later*

Nevertheless *sniff sniff*, I want to greet all the momma, nanay, ina, mama, mum and moms out there :D  I also want to give a shout out to the women I call 'mom'. Thanks for letting me. Ha-ha. I'll stop soon. Or later. I present to you a doodle I made while I was halfway to being drunk.

You all did a great job and one day isn't enough for you to celebrate your awesomeness.

LOVE,

 

PLAYLIST:

Mad Sounds by Arctic Monkeys

Madness by Muse

I'll Stand by You by The Pretenders

Here With Me by The Killers

Eye of the Needle by Sia